001. I AM Powerful Beyond Measure
Hello to the world, since this is the launch of a new avenue in my life, I figured I would first explain my journey that led me to the launch of this blog. First let me say, I am a woman of God, it will be common to find references to God and/or the Bible in some of my blog content. My faith is a strong influence in my life, however, my dialogues may vary amongst an array of topics and you may find some of my perspectives to be somewhat candid and unconventional. With that being said, if you do not believe in the same God as I, please do not be deterred from engaging in my thoughts or perspectives as whatever your belief or whomever your God may be, we all come from the same one. Although I am driven by faith I try to be objective, unbiased and non-blaming or assuming; you will still find value in the content of this blog.
Now that that has been clarified I want to share a little bit of my story with you and hopefully it will resonate and encourage you on your own journey in life. People often hear me say “Live Life on Purpose with Purpose.” I get many questions about what this means or people telling me how this phrase has changed their perspective on life. God gave us all special gifts uniquely designed just for us which are to be used to serve others and provide purpose in our lives. I would say I’ve known what my life’s purpose is for quite some time, but the thought of actually living it terrified me tremendously. I knew my gifts were to be used to elevate others how to live a purposeful fulfilled life. However, I ran from the thought for many years. I would think about this and create flawed notions in my mind to discourage me from taking any action. I thought, “No one wants to listen to me, no one is going to care what I’ve been through or what I have to say, why would anyone listen to me? I am very opinionated with a strong Type A personality which doesn’t always mesh well with others. People don’t like me or think negatively about me, I am small in this world and have done ungodly things in the past. People are going to think I am being contradictory or fake.” And with all the bad things I had to say about myself, at this point it didn’t even matter what others had to say. I refused to use my gifts to help people and continued running from my purpose. In some instances I even used my gifts solely for personal gain and in mischievous ways.
In 2011, I found myself feeling lost and wanting more out of life. I began to do some soul searching and praying trying to figure out why I felt this way. I had a good job, good relationship and all the typical material things we find comfort in. Yet, I could not figure out what void I had in my life which made me feel so empty. I turned to God for answers and He kept asking me, when I was going to live with purpose. I realized my life was unfulfilling because I was not living my life’s purpose. I knew all the knowledge, experience and talents God had bestowed upon me were intended for a higher purpose and to facilitate others so we could all live better lives. I realized if I wanted to be fulfilled I could no longer run from my calling. I began thinking about Marianne Williamson’s famous excerpt,
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that
we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most
frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented,
fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing
small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine,
as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we
unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated
from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
I thought to myself who am I not to be my talent and all these things? I am NOT small. I AM powerful. I had to overcome any fear, any doubt, or any iniquities keeping me from living life with purpose. I had to change my mentality, replacing negative thoughts and behaviors with impeccable ones. Instead of doubting myself, I coached myself to believe in the gifts God had given me. I began getting more involved in community outreach and conducting professional and interpersonal development workshops and began to come alive. Fast forward and now I am here, taking on the World Wide Web to continue to harness my talents to be a light to others in the hopes that you too realize playing small does not serve the world nor does it offer you personal gratification and fulfillment. If you are not living life with purpose on purpose, I urge you now to take action! Come into the being God has made you to be and let your light shine unto others!